What I suffer from. Dr Sydney Bennett

WHAT I SUFFER FROM NATURALLY

October 18, 2023

Normal yet natural phobia & fear with strong right-wrong natural morals & conscience aware of self & others around always 

Claustrophobia - Fear of confined spaces
Androfear - Fear of men & people 
Arachnophobia - Fear of insects 

Not a fan of insects. Not a fan of 50% of humans or a higher percentage despite being able to connect with or get along well with

Not a fan of most mammals or animals. Tolerant of 50% despite concerns

I cannot stand child like anything, faggoty girly sh*t as its reserved for ladies or anyone that insinuates I should

I fear heights & death which extends to fear of disease, stress then man-made & natural disaster

Anything repeatative annoys me. I have loose structure I can handle then cycles of interest I go through where is a climax of into it then not then again revisited then back to something else in a health variety otherwise I'll implode in insanity within myself

Claustrophobia is the irrational fear of confined spaces. People affected by claustrophobia will often go out of their way to avoid confined spaces, such as lifts, tunnels, tube trains and public toilets. But avoiding these places may reinforce the fear

I feel I am the average educated normal straight - heterosexual conservative male that is law abiding yet with an interest based style preference in perspective & approach

What I suffer from. Dr Sydney Bennett 

Having claustrophobia in my way extends to in being cold using a blanket I have to void thinking of as it annoys me

I cannot specific clothing & require my body showered clean & healthy as I feel entrapped from the claustrophobia

Small spaces I can do temporarily to perform a task with distraction or I begin to suffer

Clothing choice has to be specific or I feel confined by claustrophobia

Claustrophobia is almost like a reactive instinct that drives me in my daily schedule with food - diet then how I perform tasks & structure my disaplined schedule often firmly & aggressively 

I also experience an itchy dry sensation then memories of full body tasting then trauma like being shell shocked with temporary post traumatic stress or trauma from brain research & negligence mainly between 2012-2023 yet I cope though it drives me in ways that can be frustrating to me

Stress I can handle a lot of in different forms yet claustrophobia & dry itchy skin even if it is not provokes me as a psychological response & reaction. I have to be careful to multi-task & focus in specifics or it will consume me driving me mad 

I have no actual dietary or physical concerns yet I am injured 

No allergies 

I can cope... I developed sound coping mechanisms between 1990's-2023

The one Ontario neurological technology lab, North Bay unlike Sudbury - Montreal research interests provoke & aggravate me purposely intensifying the effects frustrating me non-stop at times leaving me meditating to avoid stratching my skin off or loosing it to melt down status which us hard for me as it takes a lot more than most 

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